Sabrina J-R

As my children grow, the level of their requests have grown as well. No longer are they pointing and grunting their desires. Gone are the days of ‘Water please?’ and ‘Can I do this?’ They’ve reached the phase of ‘Can-I-have-this-please-say-yes-please-say-yes?? Please!!’

There are times when the request is appropriate and Mommy consents. But there are also times when I have to say no, because it’s not right.

I have moments like this with God.

God, please pay off my debt, please say yes?

Please don’t let me get a parking ticket even though I went over the allotted time on the meter and I totally know it’s my fault, please, please, please say yes?

Please let me have my own way because it’s what I want and I believe that it will make me happy in the short term and I don’t feel like stopping to consider the long term. Please say yes, please say yes?

What stings is when those around me seem to be getting yesses from God while He tells me no.

There are times when God says no to me because it’s not right…for me.

My relationship with God is just that—mine and His. No one elses. It’s not my place to be concerned about what I think God is doing with others. I’m not living their life; experiencing neither their struggles nor their successes.

When He says no, it’s because He is doing what’s best. And when He says yes, it’s also because He is doing what’s best.

As a bonus, He even includes a reason at times, even if it’s delayed.

This is part of faith. Trusting God and His answers, especially when we cannot get our own way in our desired time frame. He knows what He’s doing and why He’s doing it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

{Linking up with the Five Minute Friday community.}

After being surrounded by a vast crowd of people, Elijah finds himself displaced from home. Hearing death threats on his life, he ran away in fear. He eventually ends up at Mt. Sinai.

He’s alone.

He’d left his servant behind while he wandered through the wilderness alone, for forty days and nights. By the end of his journey, he wasn’t just physically exhausted but he also felt abandoned. God stepped in and talked with Him, reassuring Him that he was not alone.

You’re never alone, though it may appear that way sometimes.

God assured Elijah that there were still another 7,000 God-fearing believers in Israel. Elijah was not the only believer. Though he had never met them, they were out there and God was fully aware of who they all were. On a planet with billions of inhabitants, it is rare to find that you are the only one with your experience, ailment, struggle. There are others, even if you haven’t met them for yourself. We only see one small glimpse of a global picture.

Loneliness is common.

Elijah had just come off a monumental victory for God atop Mt. Carmel. He’d just spent time in deep prayer, as he awaited the promise of rain. Yet, out in the wilderness, God’s leader was struggling with the concept of being alone. Feelings of loneliness aren’t only reserved for a certain type of person. It’s more common than we think and even happens to those we uphold as strong and courageous.

Loneliness can be overwhelming.

The first thing Elijah utters at the start of his wilderness experience was that he wanted to die. Being alone was so overwhelming and oppressive that he was fighting hard to cope. Even after traveling for forty days and nights, he never stopped feeling alone. When he arrived at Mt. Sinai, it was one of the first things he mentioned—after all he’d done to serve God, he was alone. It’s isolating to think that no one else can possibly know and understand just how you feel. It’s frustrating to believe that you’re the only one and can’t confide in another person because they just couldn’t possibly understand.

Jesus knows about loneliness too.

He would awaken early every day and sneak away by Himself to connect with His heavenly Father and recharge His spiritual soul for the day. Being God wrapped up in human flesh, I imagine that there were plenty of moments for misunderstanding and feeling like no one else could possibly understand. As He hung on the cross, dying in our place, His cry was to ask why God had forsaken Him in this horrific moment. What a time to feel alone!

What can we do to in times of loneliness?

We can pray. Christ understands and knows our exact feelings because He has felt them too.

We can share our story. There is power in personal testimony. There is a strength that is passed on like a ripple effect when we share our own experience with someone else.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

{Linked with the Five Minute Friday community.}

God gave Jonah directions, but he did not want to follow them. He didn’t like where God was sending Him and turned down the assignment to Ninevah. The city itself had an awful reputation and Jonah wanted no part of it.

So he ran in the opposite direction, as far from Ninevah as possible. God’s prophet—one who represented Him to people and knew all about God—tried to escape from God.

Except that you can’t escape God.

Since Jonah opted not to obey God’s call, why did he go through such troubles to hide in hopes of not being found?

He didn’t just tell God ‘no thanks, please find another prophet for this job’ and stay there. He didn’t offer up a petty excuse about how his calendar was too full for him to travel. He didn’t even try to find a substitute prophet to take his place.

Instead he ran.

Am I like Jonah? Do I attempt to run from God when the assignment becomes unlikeable, hoping that He won’t find me?

I enjoy the perks of having skills and talents. But what’s my attitude when God directs me in how to use these same talents that He’s blessed me with?

Do I say ‘no thanks, please find another writer? Another musician? Another ____________ ?’(insert your own talents here)

We won’t always like where God leads us. Yet it’s often these very moments when we’re able to grow deeper in our relationship with God. There are also times when it’s not even about us—He wants to use us to save someone else.

Thank you, God, for always finding me and being willing to still use me even if when I’m trying to hide.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

{Linking up with the Five Minute Friday community.}

Though this format is slightly different from my usual posts, I’m learning to be obedient especially when it doesn’t make sense to me and to trust God with the other details. Here are two thoughts that immediately came to mind when I read the prompt.

Be willing to learn.

It’s very difficult to learn anything when you resist being taught. The times I’ve failed or have felt miserable after completing a task are the times when I’ve been most resistant to learning. The false belief that you know enough leads to an overconfidence and cockiness, which is often only a blink away from arrogance. You cannot thrive in your growth without learning. Some of the humblest of people are those who recognize their weakness and are open to improvement. They’ve acknowledged that while things may be good in their current state, they’d be even better with help. Seize all moments as learning opportunities, grabbing the good nuggets and rejecting the bad.

Be open to learning from everyone.

This is a challenge that can cripple progress. Some believe that they can only learn from one who is a renowned expert and publicly successful in their area; a master. Others overlook anyone who is not like them as possible teachers. A difference in skin colour, gender, age, financial status, marital status, religious affiliation and more are viewed as negative strikes, leading to the false conclusion that ‘they’ could not possibly contribute anything of value to ‘me’. Yet it’s those very variations that add to a person’s ability to teach. Their perspective adds another layer of depth to the lessons you can learn. You can learn a lot from reading well-researched books. But the apprenticeship that comes from working alongside another person or hearing their personal testimony is often priceless.

When we keep our minds open to learning, we live differently. Not only will we gain from our experiences–even if it’s a lesson of what not to do in a situation–but we’ll have something to share as well.

{Linking up with the Five Minute Friday community.}

His day took an unexpected turn. Enjoying the serenity of shepherding, something caught his eye. There were flames leaping out of a bush, but it wasn’t being consumed. He went closer to inspect it, possibly to douse the flames before it turned into something uncontrollable. Never did he expect to hear his name: ‘Moses! Moses!’

‘Here I am!’ was his reply.

God has a little chat with Moses here, telling him that he’s the deliverer for God’s enslaved children.

Rather than jump for joy at the thought of freedom, and the dream-come-true of promises fulfilled, Moses protests. For everything God told him, Moses would negatively rebut with ‘But God, I can’t…’. Trust God to have a solution to each rebuttal. Because He had called Moses, He would equip Moses for the task at hand. Moses felt inadequate and intimidated in the shadow of such a massive responsibility which caused him to dwell in his fear rather than dwell in his God.

This story has replayed itself all throughout history.

‘Sabrina! Sabrina!’ God calls. (You can insert your own name here.)

‘Here I am!’ is my reply.

Then He speaks…and I rebut. I can’t. I’m not worthy. I’m inadequate. But…but…but…

But do I trust Him?

Later in Exodus, we read of the transformation of Moses’ character. He’s gone from pleading no to veiling his radiant face after seeing God. The same God who reshaped Moses is able to do wonders with our characters as well.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Linking up with the Five Minute Friday community today.

{In case you missed it, I had the opportunity to share over at (in)courage earlier this week; When A Ball Lands in Flax. Thank you for your readership and your support.}